crazy dream

had a crazy dream...featuring a coin operated elevator and a lunatic chef fighter...

i was in this building in chicago, some sort of hotel/hostel, i go to the top floor and exit outside and it's night time. i'm on the chicago lakefront on the far north side where the shore curves a bit so i can see the lights of the city looking south...

the lakefront somehow has these weird giant white floating cubes and a white mesh net for the public to sit and walk out over the water on. i walked out onto one of the floating cubes, and then walked a bit more out on the net. i thought it seemed kinda dangerous to put a bunch of moving floating cubes on a public beach with big gaps that people would have to jump across...

Sentient spam

I had to turn off my comment system due to sentient spam. I might turn it back on in the future, but for now you can reach me through the contact form.

I started writing a bunch of stuff here related to online data theft, but I lost my train of thought. Something about businesses having the ability to skirt accountability in a way that governments and individuals cannot, and this turning into a kind of jealousy & envy by the latter.

With the increasing anthropomorphism of business entities in America, individuals now not only have to fight social and government oppression, but also businesses who claim to be a type of person, an "oligohuman" - in reality just a fair-weather friend. The concept is a little too clever, and a little too dangerous.

In comparison, a spambot seems downright endearing.

Let It Wash (over me)

A song Aaron and I recorded earlier this year. I've been working on new material and this project really surprised and motivated me. Looking forward to sharing other surprising things.

Visuals & Words

My brain tends to think first in sound (shapes and movements of sound) before visuals and words, though I know it is all related. I think focusing on non-auditory elements when writing a piece can really contextualize a song as it is being written. Usually people talk about the opposite phenomenon, of a piece of music powerfully altering a scene in a movie...but I like the idea of writing a song for a movie scene that doesn't exist yet.

The Aura of Analog

In the Pitchfork op-ed entitled, "The New Analog," author Damon Krukowski tries to articulate the importance of analog technology in today's digital world.

Unfortunately, he ends up confusing his readers and perpetuating digital myths. Already too often people romanticize technology, especially older analog technology, imbuing it with some sort of cosmic power of nature and righteous historical lineage. Digital technology is often seen as flat, processed, and lifeless. Krukowski takes this stereotype further, applying it to the human condition. Analog, good! Digital, bad!

So what is really the difference between analog and digital? Continuity. An analog signal is continuous, and a digital one is discrete. That's it. Modern circuit design often deals with a mixture of the two, and often deals with converting back and forth. Like a lot of engineering, the choice of dealing with a signal in either domain ends up being a series of tradeoffs. A designer tries to use the best techniques available to balance parameters like efficiency, control, and accuracy within given constraints. Analog techniques are still used today - it's just no longer the *only* technique available, thanks to the transistor.

Ok - now I know people don't always use the word analog literally, but I've also heard it misused in place of words like tactile, human and organic. I think the word people actually mean to use is serendipity. A lot of the positive mental associations of analog are the result of the non-linear and unpredictable nature of older analog circuits - the happy accidents. So, what people seem to love about this gear is the serendipitous nature of them. Knowing this, why can't "serendipity" be yet another feature that a designer builds into a circuit, digital or analog?

In the midst of all the confusion, Damon Krukowski incorrectly attributes an increase in social self-isolation to the digital age. He sees current technology as dividing us, and somehow thinks older technology will reconnect us. To look to older technology as a therapy for modern social discontent is missing the mark entirely. Why can't we define the future relationship we want with technology instead of imagining it as an immutable force of nature that defines us?

Krukowski is troubled by social trends, but rather than dig deeper into the social dynamics of technology he gets lost trying to assign blame to digital design. He comes to strange conclusions (GPS and headphones "digitizing" the human experience? Audio processing and compression "removing" human elements from our communication?) and so his conclusion is that we've lost something along the way, and we must look to analog for the answers. Maybe what Krukowski really wants is more serendipity in his life.

If there is anything to take away from the piece, it's that technology has succeeded in appearing to be the root cause and cure of all human problems, cementing its permanent relevance in our lives. In doing so, technology keeps us talking about technology, preventing us from talking about anything else. This conversational roadblock is a source of excitement as well as resentment, and I believe why we feel "controlled" and trapped by technology. It is presented as a false dilemma, something we either must totally reject or accept. To get past this, we have to stop imagining technology as a force outside of human control, and realize we imagine it, we create it, and we use it - and so we are capable of redefining our relationship with it.

New EP out! Dead Reckoning by Black Tie Elephant

Whew! Despite all the delays, finally released. Really happy with how the artwork turned out.

In ship navigation, "dead reckoning" is a method of determining your current position based only on your previous position. It is a calculation based on guesswork. How do you know which decision is the correct one? How do you know where it will lead you?

Dead Reckoning is a four part story about a man lost at sea. Battling the inner torment of feeling lost, he must let go of the idea of home being only in one direction, and instead find comfort in the everyday choices he must make. Instead of asking "Which way is the right way?" he begins to ask "Which way do I want to go today?", turning his unknown fate into possibility.

The front artwork, drawn by Emi Yokoshima, is a Japanese yojijukugo that consists of four characters meaning: "Favorable wind, full sails."

released 19 November 2013
All songs written and performed by Farsheed Hamidi-Toosi and Brendan Finucane.

Voyage into the unknown

Getting older is like a trip to a foreign land. There are moments of joyous celebration, moments of utter confusion, moments of boredom and despair, and at times complex and unpredictable combinations of events that lead to bizarre clarity and insight. Days can drag into months into years, never seeming to change, and then all of a sudden two weeks will pack in a lifetime of experiences.

I think to be lucky is to be open to the unexpected, new experiences, even if they may seem scary or initially unexciting.

I realize I'm being a bit cryptic here, but then again I don't really feel like I can fully articulate my experiences or express myself in a blog post. I guess I write this as a reminder to my future self, and maybe in order to spark some kind of conversation with whomever stumbles across this post.

Spinnerty - Gestures

"RBM followers have long known Spinnerty for his production work behind vocalists like Joy Jones, Miles Bonny, John Robinson and Replife. This time we find Spinnerty collaborating with Chicago-based drummer Farsheed Toosi to create lush jazzy instrumentals that stand alone as full compositions. They mark a giant step forward in Spinnerty's maturity as a producer and jazzer, letting the instrumentation do the talking."

Swimming through time

The perception of time feels elusive. It is probably the strangest part of having a consciousness. How do other animals perceive time? Do they understand the notion of past, present, future? Why do we have this ability?


I launched a couple weeks ago. This past year has been an interesting journey as I started freelancing more regularly, and realized the challenges I face are very different than working a regular gig. The downside to a regular gig is feeling trapped, working on the same thing every day. This is the opposite problem when you freelance, where you have no idea what you will be working on, or if you will able to find a gig fast enough to keep things going.

Applying for jobs, gigs, and generally representing myself has been difficult when dealing with potential folks (especially over the web) because I haven't had a public portfolio site that can complement an initial conversation and a traditional resume. I also feel like I need an outlet for blogging about work things, and I've tried to write a few on this blog but it feels awkward to mix personal and work blog posts. Lastly, I would like to pursue new and more creative opportunities, not just related to web development - things like audio engineering, research, instrument building.

I realize that there is a constant anxiety with freelancing which I have to face everyday. But it is forcing me to make different decisions and be a better advocate for myself, and to accept responsibility for how things pan out, for better or for worse. I am still figuring it all out. Having an official work presence on the web will hopefully allow me to better represent myself when applying for work and land better gigs.

So now I have, and I still plan on meeting my 2 post-per-year quota here and treating it as a journal, but like I said - I'm still figuring things out. :)